LOST STARS

By: Vinca– grd 10

Have you ever had a thing, or a person, that basically keeps on track? They calm you down, and remind you of the good in this world. He did. He showed me the good and the bad. He guided me, a clueless little girl, on this cruel world. He was my inspiration, my role model, and now he’s just, gone. Poof.  Just like that. No goodbyes, no last word, no nothing.

I flinched as the door to my room slammed open. “Genevieve, dinner’s ready”, my mom said, in a soft, calm tone. She’s an angel. I know it’s hard on her, yet somehow she manage to not show her sadness, god knows how. Her eyes are tired, and her smile not being as bright as it used to be.

“Yes mom. I’ll be there real quick.” I answered, yet wasn’t planning on having dinner at all. Why bother? why bother go to school, why bother do anything, at all, when I know he’s not here?

“She’s taking it hard, really hard, I’m really worried josh. I feel like we should do something” I overheard my mom and dad talking outside of my room.

“I know. She’s always been so close to him, and she’s changed since the crash.” My dad said, in a concerned tone. “should we take her to a professional?” are they saying I’m insane? Am I actually going all crazy? No. I can’t let it happen, I, I have to be with him. I need him, right here, right now!

I ran to the bathroom as fast as I can, while holding my tears back. Why is this happening to me, to him? Why is life so unfair? Why? Hundreds of questions are running through my mind, and truthfully, I feel like I can barely hold on. This is it, I can’t take it anymore. I’m going, with him, up there. I took the razor, and burst into tears.

“Gen? Genevieve?” I heard a voice. I open my eyes, and I can see the swing I used to play with when I was a kid, and him?

“Zach?” I shouted. Is it really him?

“why did you do this?” he asked, his eyes sorrow as can be.

“I, I need you. I’m lost. This is where I wanna be, this park, you. Please Zach” I answered, crying.

“you can’t be here, this isn’t where you should be there, with mom, and dad. The three of you should move on. Don’t worry about me, I’ll always be here, with you” He answered, pointing to his heart. “now go, and don’t try to find me, I’m always next to you” as he gave me one last hug.

“Gen, please, just, wake up. We can’t lose you too” My mom’s voice echoed through my head. I open my eyes, and there she is, crying. Is this the hospital? What happened? I thought I was dead? Wait is that me?

“You need to make you choice” A young girl next to me said.

“Who, who are you?” I asked her.

“ doesn’t matter. Just tell me, are you staying, or are you leaving? If you stay, you go back to your parent. If you leave, everything will gone. It’ll be over.” She asked. I cant stay. Not anymore. I’d rather leave then stay here without him.

“take me. Now” I told her. I don’t care anymore. I just want to get this over with.

“very well then, follow the lights” she then vanished to thin air. I can see the lights she meant, and I did as she said. I followed the light.

As I get closer, an overwhelming feeling come creeping on me. A step away from it, and I’m shaking. I mean, it’s the end, there’ll be nothing left. No pain, no struggle, just nothing. I step to the light and everything turns black. Guess not all stories ends with a happy ending, eh?